Every time I was around you, I came away drained.
No matter how hard I tried, I was never enough.
Whatever I shared,
Whatever I tried to make you see;
Shrivelled, dried up and died at your feet.
Tonight, it’s almost the same old story.
I opened the gates of my heart, to let you in.
You seemed to appreciate it.
I was ecstatic, you almost fooled me.
Then the verdict fell.
You deemed that I wasn’t enough.
Your harsh judgment has always crushed me.
It left me second guessing myself.
I wondered how to achieve this elusive state of “enoughness.”
I have renounced it tonight.
I will no longer chase after this unattainable goal of pleasing you.
For it is all chasing after the wind.
I have finally realized that I am enough.
With all my cracks and crevices, I am enough.
I am enough just being me.
I can grow.
I can improve.
I can be a better version, but always of me.
I am enough!