It is here, alright.
I tried to hide it from myself to no avail.
I have been running away from it.
I now realize that I have been going around in circles towards it.
So, here I am now.
It is time to face my fears.
No longer am I running away.
A word, a glance, a thought, a gesture. Speculating on what is, what is going to be, what might be.