Daddy, why did you leave early?
Why did you have to go, depart, rest in peace, die?
Did you ever think of me?
Eh papa, did you?
Did you ever think of the pain, regrets, remorse, confusion, fear you would leave behind?
Did you papa?
A lot of things I would have said, done differently.
Numerous bitter words, needless fights, I would have avoided.
Had I known, oh papa!
Had I known our time was short.
I was foolish, careless; I wasted it.
Squandered the limited grains of sand, left in our hourglass.
I realized it too late when only one grain of sand remained.
No matter how much love, remorse, affection.
I tried to squeeze into the moment.
It still felt altogether flimsy.
Measured by the ocean of unsaid words, unexpressed love, standing behind me.
Oh papa, oh my daddy, I am now a mum, a mother!
Yes me, your little girl, I am now a parent too.
It hurts, oh how it hurts papa, for you will never see how they
Papa, are you proud of me?
You would have been elated, glad to meet them.
Wouldn’t you papa?